Today it was time for another Art Therapy class. Once again, we had to represent how we were feeling on a page and the image above is what I came up with.
I have stopped viewing my journey of recovery as a path to my target weight. Now, I am seeing my journey of recovery as a path to life. I want my life back.
For me, this picture represents how recovery is a journey. I often represent my ED using the colour red because it symbolises pain, fear and challenges. The beginning of the road to recovery is difficult and things get in your way (represented with trees, bumps, pedestrians and diversion signs trying to tell you to turn around!). The path seems very narrow and there are lots of corners you need to turn which are frightening because you never know what is going to be on the other side. The road is still winding very slowly and it is hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
However, recovery gets easier. Sooner or later you get to the ‘orange zone’. Your path begins to widen and you start to get more freedom. Things have become less scary and there are less corners to turn. Things still get in your way but not as many as before. You can get around them.
The black arrows down the middle of the path symbolise that the only way is forward. If you have made the decision to go into recovery, then I believe you can only move forward. There is no moving back. Some days you may not get very far or you may even have a fall, but that doesn’t mean you move backwards down the path. You may just stay in the same place for a short while.
As you keep moving forward your path become even wider. You start to experience more freedom and then you can start walking back into life. Here, you are in the light and you finally have clarity. You can experience freedom and opportunity.
Picasso, eat your heart out!